I'm not born
this year
I take the corporeal
shadow
into a corner to sit
nose in wall.
Last life
i took all wombs
and bloody sweet wet
and screaming joy
acute sharp joy
for granted, part of life
nibbled my own squeezy heart
like we eat doritos now
licking our fingers, licking the TV,
to the last crumb
till I finally tasted blood
mother, sweet zygote tapioca, birthday
birthday
birthday
birthday.
jan 14, 09
Suh Surreality
Suh surreality of waking
up side
down your back
wuh warm wind
unatural, welcome
down my shirt
unwelcome, natural
we luh love
i touch my lips
and pinch
suh surreality
flip switch.
jan 14, 09
up side
down your back
wuh warm wind
unatural, welcome
down my shirt
unwelcome, natural
we luh love
i touch my lips
and pinch
suh surreality
flip switch.
jan 14, 09
Gone gone gone
Gone gone gone
hair
lifted
lopped dropped
gone gone air
resting there
holding things in place
like brains
holding down
said feet and hands
lifting lopping dropping
heaven.
jan 14, 09
hair
lifted
lopped dropped
gone gone air
resting there
holding things in place
like brains
holding down
said feet and hands
lifting lopping dropping
heaven.
jan 14, 09
Mermaid Bones
Because it was a rush
of a trickle
a significant nothing
A screaming into the face
of a hole
breaking baby bones
that older would have liked,
wouldn't have minded,
might have smiled,
to crack
knowing new things will grow
in the gap
and old things are intact
but jelly bones
just bend and
their mermaid screams
sing.
jan 14, 09
of a trickle
a significant nothing
A screaming into the face
of a hole
breaking baby bones
that older would have liked,
wouldn't have minded,
might have smiled,
to crack
knowing new things will grow
in the gap
and old things are intact
but jelly bones
just bend and
their mermaid screams
sing.
jan 14, 09
The Reader
The reader doesn't want arms
how warm
around him.
The reader won't get wet if
it's not clear
to the bottom
and only his legs floating
clearly there.
The reader doesn't want to remember
who undressed him
who knew his button size
who's eyes
just his own
his iris diving deeper
into eternity, the noun,
that looks only like his soul.
jan 14, 09
how warm
around him.
The reader won't get wet if
it's not clear
to the bottom
and only his legs floating
clearly there.
The reader doesn't want to remember
who undressed him
who knew his button size
who's eyes
just his own
his iris diving deeper
into eternity, the noun,
that looks only like his soul.
jan 14, 09
Family Affairs
So frustrated with you, Nature, Time
name you names of others that translate
Mother Father
Brother Jesus
I believe in you as I believe my
sister is mine but
faith is more than unblind.
This family, mine
I know so, but don't understand
I love so, but can't hardly stand.
Jan 13, 09
name you names of others that translate
Mother Father
Brother Jesus
I believe in you as I believe my
sister is mine but
faith is more than unblind.
This family, mine
I know so, but don't understand
I love so, but can't hardly stand.
Jan 13, 09
My lady, My gentleman
Oh china, my lady
my gentleman
insanity
universe filled star
true
and honesty besides
Oh china, you teacher
you dumb ass
unknown or able
held completely
breathed deeply
you've filled the bottom of my lungs
oh me
oh me
oh me
oh me.
jan 13, 09
my gentleman
insanity
universe filled star
true
and honesty besides
Oh china, you teacher
you dumb ass
unknown or able
held completely
breathed deeply
you've filled the bottom of my lungs
oh me
oh me
oh me
oh me.
jan 13, 09
The Subtitles
The subtitles are a little
off
You say
"I love you" as I
say "what"
My face is all
expectation and gaping
when those words come
crashing down.
jan 13, 09
off
You say
"I love you" as I
say "what"
My face is all
expectation and gaping
when those words come
crashing down.
jan 13, 09
Vinegar and Kissing Sweets
let
so go
so open that kaleidoscope
of despair of wonder
both felt
welcomed same
no beggars, kings
places places
at the table
sit sipping vinegar and
kissing sweets.
jan 13, 09
so go
so open that kaleidoscope
of despair of wonder
both felt
welcomed same
no beggars, kings
places places
at the table
sit sipping vinegar and
kissing sweets.
jan 13, 09
What's Been Pouring
When falling into place
the smallest click
revealing a secret,
the sterling truth.
Melts paper boats
and the ones
and the one
riding.
Drown in river
that tastes more
like air than what's
been
pouring
into you.
jan 13, 09
the smallest click
revealing a secret,
the sterling truth.
Melts paper boats
and the ones
and the one
riding.
Drown in river
that tastes more
like air than what's
been
pouring
into you.
jan 13, 09
Chapped
In this gap in my skin
in my lip, the middle
is the space where
I grew up, a little.
When I lick it when I bite
When I breathe in hard
it stings
It's not healing, it's waiting
it's softening, hardening
I lick it and touch it
and smile and stretch it
wide open.
jan 13, 09
in my lip, the middle
is the space where
I grew up, a little.
When I lick it when I bite
When I breathe in hard
it stings
It's not healing, it's waiting
it's softening, hardening
I lick it and touch it
and smile and stretch it
wide open.
jan 13, 09
Breath Like
What did that god breath smell like when it
first sighed over my ear?
What did it taste like when I first woke up to
lick it from your everything lips?
Like a horse's mouth, clean with dry grass
like his hair that feels as smooth as skin
like a river with stones for a belly
and the silt flavoring it
And something warm
It smells like my shoulders tan, just barely wet.
Why does your breath smell like flesh?
And taste like cool air?
dec 30 , 08
first sighed over my ear?
What did it taste like when I first woke up to
lick it from your everything lips?
Like a horse's mouth, clean with dry grass
like his hair that feels as smooth as skin
like a river with stones for a belly
and the silt flavoring it
And something warm
It smells like my shoulders tan, just barely wet.
Why does your breath smell like flesh?
And taste like cool air?
dec 30 , 08
Shakily
What climbs up
in the trees
shakes there in its
joy
not fear
unsturdy muscles
only alarming
against the earth
where there are
no quivering wings
to lift you from them,
climbing.
1, 4, 09
in the trees
shakes there in its
joy
not fear
unsturdy muscles
only alarming
against the earth
where there are
no quivering wings
to lift you from them,
climbing.
1, 4, 09
How to Talk
Oh child,
you are
not a little girl anymore
in a little awe
but I just learned
to walk
behind you
a little whine
in my hand
pulling sideways
i just learned
something new
but not how
to talk
as you ask my empty mouth
"what"
as if the answer were even there,
a little further
down in my throat.
jan 4, 009
you are
not a little girl anymore
in a little awe
but I just learned
to walk
behind you
a little whine
in my hand
pulling sideways
i just learned
something new
but not how
to talk
as you ask my empty mouth
"what"
as if the answer were even there,
a little further
down in my throat.
jan 4, 009
May Here
This room feels more lived in now,
My mouth tastes more lived in
a bitter herb licked from the roof of my mouth.
That one warm breeze
surprising us and making us look in eyes for
the first time that day
forgetting what we were waiting for
just holding that touch in our mouths
and letting out what we didn't swallow.
Water heavy over rocks
suddenly
unable to be anywhere but on our knees.
jan 4, 09
My mouth tastes more lived in
a bitter herb licked from the roof of my mouth.
That one warm breeze
surprising us and making us look in eyes for
the first time that day
forgetting what we were waiting for
just holding that touch in our mouths
and letting out what we didn't swallow.
Water heavy over rocks
suddenly
unable to be anywhere but on our knees.
jan 4, 09
Every there
If I was as good as her
I'd write of God's heart
and how I see it every where
But I can only see you
no matter how many waves are drowning between us
You are all
and I do write of God's heart
and where I see it.
I mark a place on your skin with my breath
I must come back there some day
soon
and breathe in every second of you.
jan 4, 09
I'd write of God's heart
and how I see it every where
But I can only see you
no matter how many waves are drowning between us
You are all
and I do write of God's heart
and where I see it.
I mark a place on your skin with my breath
I must come back there some day
soon
and breathe in every second of you.
jan 4, 09
Airport Dance
Us laden
turtles shifting shells
from shoulder blade to
shoulder
one foot to other
but still trying our
dancing
an international folk dance
turn in, step forward
turn out, pause
step back, forward
face the front
face the side
face the way you came
bow, pick up all your handles
and clap your
feet into those ahead of you.
dec 30, 08
turtles shifting shells
from shoulder blade to
shoulder
one foot to other
but still trying our
dancing
an international folk dance
turn in, step forward
turn out, pause
step back, forward
face the front
face the side
face the way you came
bow, pick up all your handles
and clap your
feet into those ahead of you.
dec 30, 08
Fast
A fast
from socks and schedule
avoiding what I don't know about
dont want
don't say so to
This fast
will be a taffy machine
turning happily my love on the rack.
The held arms will go
my hair, go
all space will grow
as it has always.
Fast
from answers
yes or no
all contractions ending with n't.
As strangeness calls to strangeness
a fast without home
without dusty paths
without must but
sky - horizon - land
to swing closer, farther
in the only same
dance.
dec 30, 08
from socks and schedule
avoiding what I don't know about
dont want
don't say so to
This fast
will be a taffy machine
turning happily my love on the rack.
The held arms will go
my hair, go
all space will grow
as it has always.
Fast
from answers
yes or no
all contractions ending with n't.
As strangeness calls to strangeness
a fast without home
without dusty paths
without must but
sky - horizon - land
to swing closer, farther
in the only same
dance.
dec 30, 08
Painted On Skin
Why shouldn't loving you without
your painted on skin
be a custom for me
So good at unbuttoning freckles
and sliding shadows off your hips
leaving stretch marks on the floor
and all the shades they stencil in.
The slick red muscles
and their purple halos
Their water smooth bone
wrap me
true and honest
So glad they're loved
and not cut or cast
So glad my paint skin loves their
neon colors
as happy as New Year.
dec 30, 09
your painted on skin
be a custom for me
So good at unbuttoning freckles
and sliding shadows off your hips
leaving stretch marks on the floor
and all the shades they stencil in.
The slick red muscles
and their purple halos
Their water smooth bone
wrap me
true and honest
So glad they're loved
and not cut or cast
So glad my paint skin loves their
neon colors
as happy as New Year.
dec 30, 09
Paper Fans
Life, and all those big things,
is accordian folded
we used to make paper fans in church
and everyone who wants to read its script,
topples sideways looking.
Each other,
and all those big things,
are accordian folded
we used to sell paper fans for a quarter
and everyone who wants to meet,
tangles waffley on the floor.
Reality and un,
and all those so big things,
we used to crack up over those fans in the front pew
and everyone who wants to fold their own,
gets their fingers mashed and confused
braiding flesh and story
waffling life and you and me
toppling their tangles sideways
reading it.
dec 30, 08
is accordian folded
we used to make paper fans in church
and everyone who wants to read its script,
topples sideways looking.
Each other,
and all those big things,
are accordian folded
we used to sell paper fans for a quarter
and everyone who wants to meet,
tangles waffley on the floor.
Reality and un,
and all those so big things,
we used to crack up over those fans in the front pew
and everyone who wants to fold their own,
gets their fingers mashed and confused
braiding flesh and story
waffling life and you and me
toppling their tangles sideways
reading it.
dec 30, 08
A Prayer in Language
:::Translation note-
Gan xie ni (very sincere thank you)
Zhu a (God)
Zan mei Zhu (praise God)
shi de (true):::
Dear Daddy, in Heaven,
thank you when I hurt so badly
and I cannot feel love
(Gan xie ni)
When my own hands feel strange
and hurtful
When you're gone
(Gan xie ni)
I want to thank you for these things
because my faith is breaking
(Zhu a)
when I doubt and
there is empty, empty
(Gan xie) emptiness
in my hands
in your hands.
(Gan xie ni)
I thank you when my friends are scattered
their faces breaking
mine, dis remembered
(Zan mei Zhu)
And time won't hold us
Space only beholds us
and turns.
(Gan xie ni)
Thank you for the cold
that drops like a stone
And the way it hurts
my limbs in the morning.
Thank you when you're gone
(shi de)
I can't see you
(Zhu a)
Did you really promise
anything?
(Zan mei Zhu)
Thank you for the
aweful space and
(Gan xie ni)
time.
dec 30, 08
Gan xie ni (very sincere thank you)
Zhu a (God)
Zan mei Zhu (praise God)
shi de (true):::
Dear Daddy, in Heaven,
thank you when I hurt so badly
and I cannot feel love
(Gan xie ni)
When my own hands feel strange
and hurtful
When you're gone
(Gan xie ni)
I want to thank you for these things
because my faith is breaking
(Zhu a)
when I doubt and
there is empty, empty
(Gan xie) emptiness
in my hands
in your hands.
(Gan xie ni)
I thank you when my friends are scattered
their faces breaking
mine, dis remembered
(Zan mei Zhu)
And time won't hold us
Space only beholds us
and turns.
(Gan xie ni)
Thank you for the cold
that drops like a stone
And the way it hurts
my limbs in the morning.
Thank you when you're gone
(shi de)
I can't see you
(Zhu a)
Did you really promise
anything?
(Zan mei Zhu)
Thank you for the
aweful space and
(Gan xie ni)
time.
dec 30, 08
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