The fire’s inside girl,
why don't you go inside?
I've got the fire inside
I need a large world full
Of wet streets, wet lanes
Wet lamps, wet hands
you'llll get too cold out here
All alone
your feet wil be frozen
you'll lose that burn.
I've been looking for
This place to lose it
I have glowerd and spat
Enough to last
On past tonite,
On past the next .
If he says no,
And I think he will,
I'll cool down slow
Enjoying the last negligent feel.
2-9-03
last negligent feel
last summer
I should hav kissd u then an ther
Standin on my front porch.
may hav made it harder
But som thangs are tof titties
An mor appropriate than moves of logic.
I should hav kissd u
Real long and deep
to keep me busy with the issue
Of wether lovin u sparingly
Was either rite or wrong.
I should hav kissd u slowly
marinating in the porch lite.
and left u on that hot door step
both rich and sickly from the current.
10-5-02
Standin on my front porch.
may hav made it harder
But som thangs are tof titties
An mor appropriate than moves of logic.
I should hav kissd u
Real long and deep
to keep me busy with the issue
Of wether lovin u sparingly
Was either rite or wrong.
I should hav kissd u slowly
marinating in the porch lite.
and left u on that hot door step
both rich and sickly from the current.
10-5-02
leftover affair
They both Search for time
Taking their minds Off each other .
They spend the days Untying the play
And adoration.
He lets Their conversation wind down
She drains the dream her revelation
They meet alone And speak only
In tongues
They meet in dreams And liv yesterday
Undone.
1-28-03
Taking their minds Off each other .
They spend the days Untying the play
And adoration.
He lets Their conversation wind down
She drains the dream her revelation
They meet alone And speak only
In tongues
They meet in dreams And liv yesterday
Undone.
1-28-03
autistik license
with all the residue of u
on my shoulders
on my fickelish palms
I find u as but a pretty face
On a stage of dolls in mothen clothes.
4-4-02
losing it
Get used to sittin here
Restless on this preying mantis chair
U saw it inur
it will follo because u let it.
Lite the candles to help u sleep
Burn the edges offur
Wake to hang em out the window
The rain will wash away the ashes
The rain will wash away your matches.
The rain will wash away the place
u wanted and prayed so much to save.
Sept 20, 02
Restless on this preying mantis chair
U saw it in
it will follo because u let it.
Lite the candles to help u sleep
Burn the edges off
Wake to hang em out the window
The rain will wash away the ashes
The rain will wash away your matches.
The rain will wash away the place
u wanted and prayed so much to save.
Sept 20, 02
machinery
slam my eyelids hard aginst each other
slo unwilling but I caint control the
weight of homemade eyelashes
sink my fists hard in my jeans aginst my thighs
theyre aware of of their gracelss bulge
but too sweaty and vulnerable to remain exposed for u to reach for
lay my smile in its grave
stif vacuum of meaning
it takes no pleasure to scare u with its grey humanless parlour.
my fears don lie dark behind my eyz
they don shrink under my palms
they don’t tunnel beneath my frown.
But I am terrified of the directions ur eyes shift
And slide away an squint
The bloated an natural paths ur hands,
Unnoticed, wind their pendulum routine
Making patterns Across my pale bones
Your common pretty smile doesn’t falter
Jus like an over edited poem:
Clipd an trimd to offenselessness
I tremble in ur glossy shado
an predict the ways
I cant find a break in . breakthrough.
June 8-02
slo unwilling but I caint control the
weight of homemade eyelashes
sink my fists hard in my jeans aginst my thighs
theyre aware of of their gracelss bulge
but too sweaty and vulnerable to remain exposed for u to reach for
lay my smile in its grave
stif vacuum of meaning
it takes no pleasure to scare u with its grey humanless parlour.
my fears don lie dark behind my eyz
they don shrink under my palms
they don’t tunnel beneath my frown.
But I am terrified of the directions ur eyes shift
And slide away an squint
The bloated an natural paths ur hands,
Unnoticed, wind their pendulum routine
Making patterns Across my pale bones
Your common pretty smile doesn’t falter
Jus like an over edited poem:
Clipd an trimd to offenselessness
I tremble in ur glossy shado
an predict the ways
I cant find a break in . breakthrough.
June 8-02
making change
all day long i count the quaters
i count the hours
and the dollars by twelve
all day long i make the difference
between who i am
and myself
evryday im makin change
i count and change
as twelves of dollars rattle thru my brain
i make change.
6-6-04
marco polo
miles of heart strings
ive heard our bowels are over 2 dozen feet long
ive heard the human vocal chords can sing two notes at once
ive heard som lovers hav esp
if i call marco -
polo?
beds fulls of open eyed dreams
ive heard half of americas marriages end in divorce
ive heard guys think about sex approximately evry 15 seconds
ive heard absence makes the heart gro fonder
i whisper marco -
polo?
hours of fingertips
ive heard u think u lov me
ive heard uve thot so since the beginning
ive heard
polo.
6.11.04
ive heard our bowels are over 2 dozen feet long
ive heard the human vocal chords can sing two notes at once
ive heard som lovers hav esp
if i call marco -
polo?
beds fulls of open eyed dreams
ive heard half of americas marriages end in divorce
ive heard guys think about sex approximately evry 15 seconds
ive heard absence makes the heart gro fonder
i whisper marco -
polo?
hours of fingertips
ive heard u think u lov me
ive heard uve thot so since the beginning
ive heard
polo.
6.11.04
message
I want to catch one of ur fast falling tears
Put it in the ocean as a messag ina bottle
Send it to a planet in hunger and war
To let them see there is purity
Ther is lov strong enuf
To allow itself broken to pieces
I trace the shallow river down to meet your chin
Believing this brokenness
4-8-04
mourning dove
mourning dov sigh soft
while a storm rolls over
while the rest of earth stirs w/o thot
u alone weep for the weary sky
and let tears befrind
weep 4 me grey dov
and tho u hide
and the sky shuts its dark eyes
i kno ther is one heart like mine
stil and redy for the nite.
5-30-04
navy blue tonight
My eyes r blu
All day long
And even wen I shut them tite
Underneath and between
Lashes and the lite
They sleep
Navy blu.
11-14-03
nostalgia of
It rains spices
That make me sneeze
I bathe in wine- the summer heat
The breeze smells- sweet squeezed rinds.
Yet here in a state of indifferent colour
I close my eyes against it.
for u sweat season
I sleep to dream
were i a poet
I'd marry only you
We'd lie together
And in the evening laf at the sun in its hide n seek flight.
Feb 10, 2002
nudes
under the sky
naked bodies dream
of
themselves and the dirt
agin
into the preoccupied
layer of heaven
naked bodies underneeth
roofs
that honour only sincere
misunderstanding
i dont.
6 16 04
operation
operation
the girls knees weaken
one unnoticable second 5 stair from the floor
i wonder in all the ways i please u wil u ever
ignore the ways i dont
the next time she feels them buckle
on the fifth stair from the floor
wil she let them take her down
on your operation table
with a red lightbulb for nose
u pinch and prod
til i can no longer allow the sloppiness of ur surgery
buzz
game over, try agin.
sept 6, 2004
cheap origami
Heres my craft a foilpaper heart
See its flat
Find it here out side my clothes
Handle it
And fold the edges
Wen I get it bak its folded
‘round an old used wad of gum
it wont open
I look up u are gone
Feb 11, 03
rhett
Pickle juice pandemonium
Lucky lashes stripple
Run that by me one more time
Funny~Mine means I want to kiss
11-25-02
roll down the window
Sandle burn on my
Baby wite feet
Reminds me of a zora neale hurston story
OK style.
Keep turning, keep finding
One more of these
Skinny red roads
That smel like the
Bottom of the world-
That smell like the
Other side
Of wat?
05
Baby wite feet
Reminds me of a zora neale hurston story
OK style.
Keep turning, keep finding
One more of these
Skinny red roads
That smel like the
Bottom of the world-
That smell like the
Other side
Of wat?
05
sandwich
I like the way peanut butter stiks to my gums
Of course, I would never kiss u with it
But then, im not ever myself with
10-5-02
save the whales
ive got a whole religion
against everything aginst me.
need no mind
not even a beyond seeing eye
to eat religion
next to ur organic potatoe chips
and pureed unprocessed veg shake
coming straite from the 4th stomach
of a split up quaterpounder with cheese.
som where in a small town,
one venue sort of locale,
the citizens split open enouf beef stomachs
to stock yo
for a lifetime.
save the wales.
I cant-it's against my religion.
7-24-03
she cannot say we are alike
She cannot say we are alike,
My vermillion rivers scorche the pavement
Grind aginst the slabby sidewalk.
Her deep control,
soft hilights,
contour hue
Is it blue is it gold?
She folds and stretches away from this place
I wrench over the arch-cliff of earth
And I would like to be like her movements-
Like her destination and her mind
But I cannot seduce these galvanized thots of my own,
on my own.
Tie them down... and I am too.
Feb 4, 03
My vermillion rivers scorche the pavement
Grind aginst the slabby sidewalk.
Her deep control,
soft hilights,
contour hue
Is it blue is it gold?
She folds and stretches away from this place
I wrench over the arch-cliff of earth
And I would like to be like her movements-
Like her destination and her mind
But I cannot seduce these galvanized thots of my own,
on my own.
Tie them down... and I am too.
Feb 4, 03
shining amour
i was not defenseless
long before you ran to my rescue
possibly you find my “perfect beauty”
probable cause for personal naivity
personally i am probably more naive to the possibility i could ever defend myself against
sept 6, 2004
shrink wrapped
Don’t turn that thing on
This room is alredy ful.
If wat ate the trees
And the clocks
And the souls
Got ate
Who would we lov
Would God com any closer
No
We would still feel lonely
And id stil lov nerds
But leave the screendoor open
Jus in case abuse wanted to stop by.
Som places the stars would shine
And som places never see the stars.
Rite-I sed it would all be the same
Jus easier to recognize
that we're already wrapped in coffins
7-24-03
out
she aint got no washin machine
she likes the coin mat comraderie
there aint no “mrs’s bank account”
just a pizza hut cup half full of quarters, a few new pennies
--the machines don’t take them.
leave the sheet off the window,
the sun warms the mattress where she doesn’t dreem.
keeps her beige trench coat wrapped round tite.
She passes her next door whores with a food 4 less sack of laundry.
10-9-02
she likes the coin mat comraderie
there aint no “mrs’s bank account”
just a pizza hut cup half full of quarters, a few new pennies
--the machines don’t take them.
leave the sheet off the window,
the sun warms the mattress where she doesn’t dreem.
keeps her beige trench coat wrapped round tite.
She passes her next door whores with a food 4 less sack of laundry.
10-9-02
so - so
A kid so skinny shes got no room
for love between her bones and skin.
sky so blatant its not quite white
but it glares into the earth
draining colours and replacing
them with angry mirrors.
4-21-04
st. love's demands
I dedicate this line
To u st. lov
Wil u ask for the next one as wel
Wil u ask for my dreams
And everyday selfishness im enjoing
Will eventually u ask for my body
To serve u and ur children
Wil eventually u ask for my soul as wel
Wat wil that leave me st. lov
Not even this line
I write in wiling adoration.
2-11-04
strange brew
No kisses tanite in my coffee
In my swamp of chocolate and bean juice
I only add milk and a pink pakage of diamond dust.
Stare at it blankly
Obviously something is amiss
I kno beforehand the malt wil be bland
I twirl my skinny straw
Along the bottom
Then take it to the drain
And dump my kissless latte.
1-23-04
In my swamp of chocolate and bean juice
I only add milk and a pink pakage of diamond dust.
Stare at it blankly
Obviously something is amiss
I kno beforehand the malt wil be bland
I twirl my skinny straw
Along the bottom
Then take it to the drain
And dump my kissless latte.
1-23-04
suspicion
suspicion
u remind me so much of this girl
that
wen youre making promises
i see plans in her mind.
dont forget me
dont forget me
dont forget all about me.
these eyes im following
fall out of site
are u strong enof for trust?
am i?
im charting
on charts and bar grafs.
see this line is
pumping wildly aginst the time
skipping now to make it there, somwhere faster.
can u make it?
can i?
dont forget me
dont forget me
dont forget all about me
wen u run out of time.
7-28-04
tardy
my hed is thick and growing
large weedy and choking
my poison bloom is flowring
I need the arms of advil to hold me
Blak fuz in concentrate
Blak flies behind my face
Blak lite in which I make
My mind up to be too late
10-3-02
large weedy and choking
my poison bloom is flowring
I need the arms of advil to hold me
Blak fuz in concentrate
Blak flies behind my face
Blak lite in which I make
My mind up to be too late
10-3-02
that's right
that’s right
this page is last years
this page u prolly helped me write
its drowning in the lonliest lake
of blakspit and snow and faded distances
the horizon shrinks
lower lower.
…
write with me agin
rhythms that slip thru the craks
no cadence no climate no climax
write with me
furiously
scrawling over the past.
2-9-03
this page is last years
this page u prolly helped me write
its drowning in the lonliest lake
of blakspit and snow and faded distances
the horizon shrinks
lower lower.
…
write with me agin
rhythms that slip thru the craks
no cadence no climate no climax
write with me
furiously
scrawling over the past.
2-9-03
the flash of your eyes
The eyes relate all that
Dirty, grimy flesh with the
tangled soul inside
And no I never thot so either
Til u lookd at me
And even then I didn’t notice
-that was more than looking-
But slowly-like a majic trik
I begin to understand
I begin to com bak
To b lookd at-
Strange desire to b lookd into
And I convince myself this time
This one will see
But u cant decide - u don’t match
The flash of ur eyes.
They look ready to kno
Deep things in spite of fear
3-25-04
darkroom
made a deal with God before i was born
id get to liv if i agreed to die in the end
its harder for som who hav to let go soon
while others wil hold on a while
then agin it mite be hard for them too
ud think since the deal was made before i was born
i’d be born with acceptance too
but im not born with it
im very not born with it.
fast car
botox
red bull
drive thru
photos
made a deal with God before i was ded
get to die if i agreed to live to the end
its harder for som who stay a long while
while others get to go soon
then agin it mit be hard for them too
take off my camera
and shoot the moon
8 1 04
the peephole
the peephole in the center of my door bleeds ice cold lite into my warm hole nest
im tired of not being alone
im tired of having to choose to be alone
giv me strangers skipping wildly inside the speakers on my desk
leave me here with ancient monologues of lov and entrapment
find me asleep with gods i do not kno and many open windos for dearest frinds.
sept 2 2004
the sun god
penetrating lite replaced
by face to face
dont fool urself
the clouds hav honored
angels before
seek not
vagueness in the skies.
6 16 04
there were rivers
ther were rivers
there was power
all around u
but u couldn’t
find the river
find the power
in the man
u came to find.
He had lost u,
Learned to like it
U taught him better
Than to forget
U taught him
Pasts never erase
Iron motives unbar their gates
Lov wil leave u
bare empty handed
Leave no doubt
I doubt evry word I litter
Be not dismayed
I am hopeless as I mutter
Be not deceived
I lost my lines
In ur arms
If tomorow went away
I would lov u ruthlessly
And hav no other.
2-9-03
there was power
all around u
but u couldn’t
find the river
find the power
in the man
u came to find.
He had lost u,
Learned to like it
U taught him better
Than to forget
U taught him
Pasts never erase
Iron motives unbar their gates
Lov wil leave u
bare empty handed
Leave no doubt
I doubt evry word I litter
Be not dismayed
I am hopeless as I mutter
Be not deceived
I lost my lines
In ur arms
If tomorow went away
I would lov u ruthlessly
And hav no other.
2-9-03
thoughtless
can i Untie the hands
demanding my waist.
To power this is my plea
This is my bending beg.
Don’t lock me under the
proper coldless Hotless lock.
break doors, hinges, all
Remove the lite sweat
Carrying away my will.
replace the glistin with floods to drown in.
thanku for letting me down
refusing to hem the tide.
To power this is my plea.
think no less of me.
2-29-02
demanding my waist.
To power this is my plea
This is my bending beg.
Don’t lock me under the
proper coldless Hotless lock.
break doors, hinges, all
Remove the lite sweat
Carrying away my will.
replace the glistin with floods to drown in.
thanku for letting me down
refusing to hem the tide.
To power this is my plea.
think no less of me.
2-29-02
tickelish
like galoshes
in a wasteland
like a blak
umbrella in the
sun.
we don’t need
each other
but it’s fun
making all them
ppl look.
We don’t need
Each other
But it’s fun.
While we kno
We’ve finally
Fallen.
They but stare
In assumption.
11-17-03
toast
heres to
whoever holds my hand
uve done a lot
and this one hit band
dont blame u
for ur sweaty palms
dont shame u
for ur unmade plans
heres to
whoever whispers to me in movies
uve come aways
closer than this preacher to the chorus
thot ud get
farther than the plans she took for granted
reckond ud make it
heres to
whoever hands me the city map
uve sed more trufe
more than this one hit wonder
could predict
more than the world at large
has heard as of yet
and heres to
whoever
6-13-04
tree hugger
Somewhere before waking
the approaching lite bends the corners
Where the sky reclines.
The last branches-
survivors yet of the genocide
Shuffle near, crowding the pane.
But as the day shades, they bristle
Tiptoeing beside skeletons
and hacked down youth
Tonite they may not
Com home to the parade
Out side the blak windo.
July 29-03
the approaching lite bends the corners
Where the sky reclines.
The last branches-
survivors yet of the genocide
Shuffle near, crowding the pane.
But as the day shades, they bristle
Tiptoeing beside skeletons
and hacked down youth
Tonite they may not
Com home to the parade
Out side the blak windo.
July 29-03
un metered
i wrote u a song and it came out all wrong and ended up
a serenade to me
i called up ur fone, sed hello to a stone - realized
it couldnt be
called bak twice more and sang ur song written to me and the stone answered
in the sound of silence
till the line disconnected with a beeping chorus
i piked up my guitar.
thats the last time i serenade a stone who hears voices.
8 1 04
fluorescent
ima nap hed
thinkin this
blackboard
needless
thinkin this
buglit gathering
concerns me
on the
lowest
neuroaction.
00-00-03
underneath now
Skin smels like
Rain and summer
Like those private
Walks I took alone
With God in the field
Like afternoon sheets
In the ariconditioning
Wen its hot outside.
Like clovers in the evening
Under chilly stars
Wen all the world is
Warm around me
The best pieces of summer
I hide away while the
Leaves surrender their false pretenses
And it seeps out of my skin
Sitting warm and lazy
After a midwinter shower.
12-11-03
your feet are not so pretty
but id recognize in a glance
and think of lov.
00-00-02
waking backwards
By the night I am slowly waking bakwards
exhaling slowly
of someone.
by morning I can unlick the edges
the sticky mint.
by half past two I will
completely
hold and own u
before breakfast yesterday nite.
august 21, 02 r
exhaling slowly
of someone.
by morning I can unlick the edges
the sticky mint.
by half past two I will
completely
hold and own u
before breakfast yesterday nite.
august 21, 02 r
what will you bring
com home and wat
my longing wil u bring
chocolots
those sweets i eat
even in ur absense
com home my longing
and wat
wil u bring
arms that swallo
tears that hav been my only food
com home and wat
wil u bring
but longing
to be home.
6 16 04
finding the sill
Square of green lite
Blu dust
Singed edge with scraping guitars
An illusionary wif of mildew.
Thot id always look down from these windo bars
I didn’t realize how I lov to look up.
My face unflexed
Holds up slite curves like scaffolding
under a covered chapel ceiling
My pucker lips
Conform with my chin into the
Soft broken spot on my unused wrist.
Shadows and romance
My ribs push into and thru thim
Slitely bending the marrow
With their implied depth.
Aroused, my stomoach clutches the
Gritty buz of carpet
I leave my sno angel in the dust.
April 18 2002
white lips
the uncomfortable facts
i do not feel
i cried wen i found out
im not creativ
i doodled a map bc i cannot write
here’s my angry essay in my frustration
i dont lov u
u hav enlightend me
this i felt, did, and was with u...
isnt.
2-26-02
wrinkles upside down prairies, and you in the morning
drop to the dirt
give up the giving, begging
visions taken
uncertain blaze of joy
under these ribs, you've counted
the muscle splints, you've unstrung
let my brain unwrinkle
(why I can't sleep)
ladders built with the daylight ride
up a rippled sky, an upside down prarie.I run, calf high grass, my face one smooth sheet again.
forgetting your flicker,
the midnight keeps me looking for you over.
pray my brain never wrinkles
a way out of love with you.
and the sky prairie
a new altar of
“it is better to have never loved at all”
4-21-04
give up the giving, begging
visions taken
uncertain blaze of joy
under these ribs, you've counted
the muscle splints, you've unstrung
let my brain unwrinkle
(why I can't sleep)
ladders built with the daylight ride
up a rippled sky, an upside down prarie.I run, calf high grass, my face one smooth sheet again.
forgetting yo
the midnight keeps me looking for you over.
pray my brain never wrinkles
a way out of love with you.
and the sky prairie
a new altar of
“it is better to have never loved at all”
4-21-04
savings
I'm saving it for a rainy day.
Some rain on the pavement day
The sun can't com and steal it off my lips.
my glaze collects the dewey drips
Collects the secrets
Collects unsung thots
Didn’t think I could do that huh
Well I hav been saving it for a rainy day.
Feb 11, 03
Some rain on the pavement day
The sun can't com and steal it off my lips.
my glaze collects the dewey drips
Collects the secrets
Collects unsung thots
Didn’t think I could do that huh
Well I hav been saving it for a rainy day.
Feb 11, 03
politics of the heart
there is no softspot hearts in their gum wrapper memorials, brandished flags to be a patriot, and play war games with the children. but their children will remember little of their remorse, save a infringed synthetic flag awavin from their gold suburban door.
9-11-02
9-11-02
poetish
I think In poemsi think its poems.saying everythinginto a touchable cloud,into a precipitationcrashing back into my mouth.formed and heldthen reckless abandoned.and i cant puff them into ringsor blow them thru my nose.just give a breath to that litmus airthe poem shows,saying everything.
jan 25, 2006
jan 25, 2006
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