Half and Half Made Up

all frantic to

tell you where

and not how come

i can't

you'll fill in the blanks

then and gone (when)

we kept it simple

as easy as it was

your eyebrows fall in together

my smile does as much 

as my boots do ring

in line line line

of course all paper writes

better than our hands

in our palms

our own strangers

impatient with these men

with my teeth

i'll tell you

that i took the note

i had left for you and

had it made into a pitcher

to pour black water from

as my hand

casts a shadow over the words

i scratched in hand

all into the dark

and sort it out

late

half and half made up

made believe mostly

skimmed in blue veins

counting by trains

and their stops

i lay my head back

how can i

be your only

can you be mine?

my heart fades under

lights of late

street signs

the train pulls out

like (it knows)

like the past

you won't get to speak

til next time

she teach me

i teach you

you teach me

to say line line line

you dance

from your knees (up)

at the end of the night

whenever

we find it

it's what's left

in my hands and

not yours

that we're left with

the knees fall out

from under

I slouch to you

shallow in my

swung from the hip

suggestion

just drunk enough

to know

you're jack

i'm gin

tuck in our chins

to laugh hard

and in our knees

to weep

me all numb in your stun

aside

i need to be

a good deal drunker an this

a good deal holier

it's late

i grew eyes

i held so still

what do we do with

the sweat under our shirts

our skirts

sleep dance on

straighten your back

to pass me in the doorway

and don't let me catch you

in waiting again

i can see your cheekbones

you weren't for me

aside

summer all

can't last that long

can it last that long

summer bawls

summer ah

the proof

is in just a stain

a bruise i

re-enact

a breath i

re-intake

my excuses are

boots on the wood

the solemn only sound

of a late coming spring

i get behind all i can

dance to

the musicians tune

we fray

you do the violence

i'll do harmony

i put you

but i don't see you

like i seen you

in a man's bed

half there and gettin so

you have to

you leave too

much time for

the lending

i can't believe and be

my heart and its

relentlessness

double up

what i have is

prettier than what

you say 'sing'

aside

it'll take a year

to believe it all.

don't be ashamed of

afraid of the things

behind your ears

may 27th, 2011